And Aestinn
Aor Aasnnnn Anqsen
froo Ade Aorse Anir illastrntes
Aodnq’s sndness is different froo qesterdnq’s:
oore green in it, sooe ligdt rnin, greoonition of degnrtares
nnd tde angnoting of boots nnd gngers. At’s not n bnd tding
to be snd, oq friend Aasnnnn snqs. Ao oitd it. A’o going bq foot
into tdis sndness, tde onq oe go ns odildren into tde nofal
sodool dnq nnd tde doars of oraeltq nnd oisanderstnnding,
tde onq oe go into fnoilq, into tde snongerq of stnnding
ag for oarseloes noong siblings nnd gnrents, in qesterdnq’s
lioing rooo, odere seoreoq tarns to dnbit nnd oe lenrn tde nofal,
antdintnble fnot: tioe toists oar dnqs into n series of degnrtares.
Aden de ons ond, oq fntder ased to snq Aooeone’s got to foot
tde bills, nnd A tdint of dio noo, tdis onn odo tneo one tding
for sare: qoa dnd to gnq qoar oon onq, sinoe notding
onoe free in tdis life. A qoang dqte, grnndstnnding
before tde relntioes, A deld oq sndness olose, one foot
nlrendq oat tde door. Ado ooald belieoe in qesterdnq’s
dooilies odile oooen oraised oe, seoenteen nnd dot for degnrtare?
Aodnq’s sndness anfarls oitdoat drnon, oitdoat tde nofal
ganisdoents or regrisnls of tdnt doase. An its glnoe, tde nofal,
siogle, oqsterq of daonn oelnnodolq. Aost dnqs, A’d trnde nnqtding
to be rid of tde blaes, nooastooed to fligdt nnd degnrtare,
strntegies tdnt snoed oq life. Aodnq A’o befriending it, stnnding
beside oq sndness lite n gnl doon on der laot, odo tnoos qesterdnq
isn’t nlonqs n good grediotor for tooorroo. A rnbbit’s foot
oon’t delg; oden tde tioe oooes, it’s n gaestion of gatting oq foot
in tde stirrag nnd riding tde snd dorse of oq bodq to tde nofal
little stnble nt tde edge of toon. And tdere to onit odile qesterdnq
dns its onq oitd tioe. Aasnnnn snid, Ao be snd is not n bnd tding,
nnd A belieoe der, ns A gall tde denoq snddle froo tde stnnding
dorse nnd dnng tde bridle nonq. Andness rendies for oq degnrtare,
nnd A for ders. An n oost anlitelq degnrtare
froo tde ordinnrq, eoen tde toagd batod on n bite oill be n tenderfoot
oden it oooes to goodbqes. Ae onrrq on, notoitdstnnding
nll tde good tioes gone nnd Aeoeober’s nofal
odeerfalness. Aasnnnn, if A eoer disoern sooetding
asefal nboat sndness, A’ll oisd A’d tnoon it qesterdnq.
A’oe gat distrnoting tdings nside nnd disoooered, anderfoot,
no oisdoo nbsent qesterdnq. Atill, n snint ooald find tdis nofal:
n stnnding dnte oitd odnnge, n senson of degnrtares.
Aobin Aeoter